Love?     What's love really mean?It's not about just the word, love is more than a word to throw around. Love is a feeling. It's a feeling that awakens your soul, swallows you completely, and leaves you wanting more. It's something that takes a lot of work, and it doesn't just happen over night. It's breath taking and worth everything that life throws at you. It's a commitment to give your heart to someone and pray that they hold onto it and keep it safe. Love is giving all the power to someone to destroy all that you are, but having the confidence that they won't. Love is waiting on the person who you know you're meant to be with to turn around and realize you're standing there. 

Life in General

Losing and letting go

One of the most difficult thing to learn in life is the art of letting go and learning to grieve. I guess I call it an art because it seems to take so long to really learn it. But you can also call it a requirement to go on upwards and moving forward. The hardest thing about letting go is that it is such a tricky thing to recognize the moment when it finally happens, the moment whatever you are holding onto, whatever deep loss, whatever fear, whatever anxious grip of control, whatever determined expectation or failed dream, the moment it slips from your hand and falls to the floor. The floor that is cushioned with acceptance, reality, and recognition. There is no logic or calculation to how it happens or when it happens. Another reason that makes letting go difficult is because when it really happens part of what is created is new space, new possiblilies, new unmarked territory something where a future can be hoped and waited out. It makes me think that learning to let go is just another way in which we live into the idea of ressurection, new life. When something dies no matter how traumatic and devastating and unexpected, there is always the possibility for new life to open up from the loss but it seems like it takes uncalculable time. I just feel like I will never be able to overcome this feeling of loss this month. It might take a while but I will get through.

Just an insight through thoughts!

"It's never too late to be what you might have been" -George Eliot
I don't really know who this George Eliot person is but really in fact he made me begin wondering about maybe I should start looking for who I ought to have been. Does that mean I made a blunder and moved to Virginia and dropped my whole intacted life for no reason? I hope not because I do like my life right now and the path it is taking. I just speculate sometimes that maybe I am taking my life at a diverse angle than I am suppose to. I strive to take my life one day at a time but I have a tendency to wonder what is going to happen the next day. I work at HISC and I adore my job to say the least. I have fantastic people I take care of. I have a couple I take care of on the some weekdays and weekends. I just look forward to going to see them every day. They make me laugh at the most atypical things in life. One of my clients has Alzheimers and it is so heartrending how terrible this disease is. He is a very intellectual man who loves his life and spouse. He is so witty. He makes his life all about laughing and making someone else laugh. Anyways, these people have made an impact on my life in a very unnoticeable way. They have taught me so much about life and love. They never have a dull moment in their lives. They believe whole heartedly that life is short and nothing can stand in their way of contentment. I just wished that I would do the same. So if you are wondering about what to get out of this post to take back to real life just remember life is fragile and short. So "Let Go Let God". I will be striving to live like this from now on! :)

Volunteering your heart and mind!

Volunteering is such a widely used word but some people don't understand what it is. Volunteer means: someone who works for a community or for the benefit of environment primarily because they choose to do so. I don't think that anyone can do this, they have to want to to make a difference. I think the most respectable and upstanding people who volunteer a lot of time, effort and heart are Volunteer Firefighters. Volunteer Firefighters are people who are there for strangers in a time of need. Firefighters may or may not know their patients but they will do anything and everything to help the patient find a treatment for their illness or problem. I know you are sitting there thinking,firefighting is not strength of yours but it doesn't give you a reason not to volunteer your time and heart into something that you have compassion in.